thevagrant88 wrote:The obvious thing would be to set up time with a tutor or language partner, but my schedule is not consistent Even if I did, it would be once a week and I’d absolutely want to supplement it somehow anyway.
So why don't you do that? Once a week is just fine. I would only give you the hint that it really is important to make out the next meeting at the end of the previous one. No "I'll text you" or anything like that. At the end of the meeting just look at your calendars and find another suitable date. It doesn't have to be the same day or the same time every week, but it is important to agree on a time for the next meeting, so that you won't forget to text each other etc.
thevagrant88 wrote:So what can I do from the comfort of my home?[...]Could journaling help? Talking to my pets?
Generally speaking those are at least things you could try.
But especially since you say
thevagrant88 wrote:[...]And yes, I know nerves are 100% a factor.
the concept "You only learn how to speak by speaking" applies. I don't think there is any possibility you can speak spontaneously, if you don't speak regularly.
I looked a bit at your log, and noticed you already mentioned those problems in the very first post of it, which was about two years ago. But I also found this bit here from 2021:
thevagrant88 wrote:Spanish - I just have Spanish now. Like, it’s there and not going anywhere. I don’t generally have much trouble communicating with strangers unless they have a really challenging accent. I read novels, listen to podcasts, play video games, and generally just use it. I’ve been thinking about getting involved in some kind of online gaming to meet people. It’s also humbling because even with my more advanced level, there is still droves of room for improvement.
Did you actually try the online gaming with other Spanish speakers? If not, could now be the time to do so?
Another question I would be: How much do you use your productive skills? I read a lot about listening/watching series and reading books, but I didn't really anything about writing. (Though I may have missed that.) So how often do you write and speak? Is speaking the only productive skill you use at least every now and then?
If this is so, then regular writing practice could actually help you, too.
Oh and by the way, don't be unsatisfied, if you don't speak as eloquently as people in the movies or series you're watching. That is normal. It may come with time, or it won't, but I wouldn't worry about it (yet).