French
I've been consuming a lot of French media and doing some monologue practice, but I haven't been doing as much DELF practice as I thought I would. My goal is to spend Sunday and Monday using French as much as possible, but not necessarily practicing for the exam. I'm already thinking about what resources I'll use for the DELF B2.
The exam is at 8:45am, which is going to be difficult considering that we just made the switch to Pacific Daylight Time (losing an hour of sleep). I've been trying to get my sleep back on schedule but it's very difficult to sleep and get up an hour earlier -- my husband, who works in sleep medicine, tells me that it can take weeks and sometimes even months for the human body to adjust backwards like that.
Even though I'm nervous about the speaking part of the exam, I'm psyched to be able to spend time speaking French with someone in person for the first time in my life.
Life
The following is going to get a little personal, so it's up to you if you feel like reading it.
As far as general life stuff goes, I'm bored and I want to get a part-time job. But I also feel stuck. It's been 3 years since I've worked, and I feel like I won't be able to explain that gap in an interview without discussing the health problems I had. I had a surgery 2 years ago which fixed the problem for the foreseeable future, but the health issue is very personal and only happens in women, which would be awkward to try to explain during an interview. I'm not sure what the protocol is regarding something like that... should I just mention it vaguely? Will I be asked questions? Should I mention it at all? All I have to show for my time off is French and my significantly improved health and mental health. I've also started volunteering for a local organization but only very recently.
But the longer I wait to get a job, the longer that gap becomes...
Plus, I really want to go to school. I'd love it and I'd be good at it. The plan is to start with an inexpensive community college to get a GPA and an AA, and then go to a university. The only thing holding me back is that I don't want to start college before we buy a house, because it will affect our finances (which are solid right now, but we'll have to renew our house loan in a couple months). I wish I had gone to school much earlier, but I was too scared... to be judged based on the score of a single exam... to be socially awkward in a group... to go into debt to get a degree that isn't in math or science.
I feel like a lost child again. It's stressful to make these decisions independently, but I know plenty of other people have gone through life without the support of their parents, family or community, so I refuse to allow that to hold me back like it has throughout my entire life. I am lucky to have my husband who is willing to support me.
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