I find it intriguing that I have been censoring myself here on the forum. This isn't a go ad administrators, policies or the forum itself. It's more of this... Well if
I'm censoring myself because I don't want to lose what I have here, how is it that we continually sell out a little to keep the status quo? When you consider the potential direction we are headed will be filled with more and more electonic communications, then we are really headed down censorship lane to the max. People are doing the work for the system.
And for those who do not believe that a conspiracy could be
that big (i.e. 'global'). Think again. The heirarchy that is human economics and power structures is the perfect control system. The digital age is bringing language editing and behaviour modification into real time, or close. If you work as a CEO of a bank and you know you want a shit load of money this year, you're going to be pretty cut-throat in your approach to improving the bottom line. If you're a teller and you need to pay your bills, you're going to toe the line so you can get that next pay cheque/check. If you're a nurse
who's come to realise the the very structures of western medicine are dominated by giant corporations who will go to any lengths to protect their interests, but you have a family and house payments and dreams and aspirations, are you going to say much? Not really. You won't have a job pretty soon. If you love learning/reading about others approaches and thoughts on language learning but you've a tendency to rant about so called conspiracies (they are not), politics etc and you also consider the fact that all this information is recorded somewhere and that it often brings more trouble than it's worth, because people prefer not to rock the boat... well are you going to eventually shut your mouth? More than likely. We do, indeed almost all of us, sell out to some extent.
But that's okay I think. Negotiation is probably normal, it's probably tribal, natural, animal-like, native instinct. But in a world in which so much is interconnected (particularly information and transactions), access to material goods and experiences are seemingly unlimited if one has the money, and the human population is HUGE, and corporations are multi-national super-powerful, if we all act this way, where will we end up? I don't think the fault necessarily is outside of ourselves either. We have handed our power over. We all play our role. So if you think that a global conspiracy is too big. Think again, because each and (almost) every one of us is actually going along with this some consciously and massively, others hardly at all consicously or unconsciously. This isn't about blame, i'm just analysing. It is worth being honest with ourselves and realising we are not perfect. But do not, I'm not a fan of blame, despite being judgemental on frequent occasions (a character flaw?).
And here's a piece of truth. I'm writing this because I think my vanity has said, what's going on with my log. It's not attention grabbing enough lately. I realised I stopped being so controversial/interesting. I'm not saying I want to stir things up, but it's worth at least rambling a bit over. Judge me if you will, I do.
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So, I am really really tired lately. I am still suffering because I find it so difficult to switch off. I believe I have screen addiction and adrenal fatigue, but I'm still managing to function pretty well. I'm dabbling in both French and Dutch lately because I'm either tired, distracted or fanatical about organising language learning material (see below).
I've been scrambling to rip language CDs, organise language files, language books and so on. And it takes forever because I am such a perfectionist about it (and computers are just blood fiddly!). We've only perhaps 7 weeks until moving and SOOOOO much to do, and of course all I can think about (selfishly) is how I can get all my language material finally digitised as much as possible (some CDs remain in German that I'm not likely to use for the next 2 years if not 5 or 10). I just want that crap out of the way, done! Finished with! So that when we go to Saudi, I don't think, oh, I still need to rip that audio from that German program Fokus Deutsch one day.
Now I've said it before, but I think I need to step away from the forum for a little break, maybe I'll catch you guys again in Saudi (provided I can access the site okay).