badger wrote:sorry you're having a tough time languist. have you considered getting some counseling/therapy if it's having this much of an impact on your life?
Hmm, I did actually start to go to therapy because of the things that happened, then something even worse happened, and kind of ironically - or just unfortunately, my therapist's office is right in the epicentre of it all, so I wasn't able to go anymore. Actually, the big problem is that what happened happened within the immediate vicinity of my home, and it's a small city, so I just... yeah. Nope. Can't leave the house. I don't feel any fear about going to Siberia, or Afghanistan, but to travel just a few metres from my front door is impossible. It's not fun at all tbh! Thanks for your concern and input. x
I should add - because I am very busy, and all of that busy-ness is online now, I don't really think about the fact that I can't leave the house very much. Until one of my friends invites me somewhere, and I realise that I can't go - or during some really frustrating moments like, I want to make coffee and realise there is no milk left. There is a shop about 67 seconds from the front door of my apartment block, but still I have to wait for my housemates to get home from work and ask them to pick some up on the way back. That's when it's certainly difficult to ignore.
I guess it's quite a serious thing but at the moment I'm just living with it with the same attitude as this emoji... ¯\_(｡•́︿•̀｡)_/¯