It's a long time without writing. I feel I'm a little rusty. When I want to write something, it's stuck. But to some extent, I think If I only could write one sentence is also good for me now.
Did I mention that I would write diaries? Yes, I did, but the shame is that I only wrote four diaries. It's totally not enough. But I'm trying to keep doing it and write more.
I also did as the new friend told me, did some preparation before I went to the activities. It's a pity that I failed.
I was too nervous to speak out what I prepared. When I was nervous, my mind went blank. It's frustrate. "Maybe I need to try more, I just begin to do it, and I should be confident in myself." I comforted myself like this. I like a saying which I heard in a TV program several days ago: the last thing to lose is self-confidence for a person. That confidence will make you more magnanimous on the future road. Yep.
Recently I did nothing for learning English, except for doing simple reading on the subscription, taking apart in English activities and remembering vocabularies occasionally. The rest of my time is focus on my professional books. Because I have two exams in professional certificates.
One month ago, I was very lazy, I didn't want to review my professional books, I didn't want to do anything, I only wanted to play and watch animations or lied down and rest after getting off the work. Although I knew there wasn't much time left, I still didn't have a sense of urgency. Until two weeks ago, my bosom friend went to another city. Her former supervisor recommended her a job, the company is where her former supervisor is working in. It's in another province, and it's far away from me.
At that time, I was happy and sad. She could learn more from her supervisor, she could accumulate more experience, so I was happy for her. She won't accompany with me as before, and we couldn't have a meeting frequently. When I met some depressive things, without her by my side, so I was sad. But It's well, we could do video or phone calls, haha,
maybe I just depended on her too much.
After that, In retrospect, I think I need to make an adjustment. We must be responsible for our choices, we shouldn't have regrets, so we must constantly endeavor. Making efforts to realize our expectation. In order to leave no regrets, I study hard than before. I learnt one hour per-day after finishing all daily things. But If I got off work very late, I won't learn at that day, because I need to keep enough energy for the second day. Of course I won't stop learning English. Even though my English is still not very well, but I love it. I will grasp every chance to practice it. Just having patience and time, accumulating little by little, practicing and practicing, you will gain the progress.
I don't know what will happen tomorrow, so I need to grasp the today, trying my best to reach my little goals. As a saying goes :"No matter what happened in the past, you have to believe that the best is yet to come."
In a word, thanks for reading.