I need to keep studying German but also let's study alllll of the languages!!! Or maybe even just orthography. You are fascinated by Kanji remember. Don't forget that you have hard copies of language textbooks in how many languages (and then there are the electronic copies)? Remember how you said you wanted to study X language that isn't German? You should do that.
And then at the same time there is the much stronger:
That is why I get so little done in terms of language study and have to work exceedingly hard to get school work done (which I've been pretty successful at for the past two years).I am bored but let's not pretend that doing anything I actually like or want to do is going to happen [because depression].
What is good is that this afternoon I watched 40ish min of German language data, parts of which I will likely analyze for a journal article that will eventually be published and for a class, ended up finding lots of interesting things to look at (perhaps too many things ). I also ended up studying a bit of vocabulary from Norsk på 123. One of my friends is a heritage Norwegian speaker and wants to learn German. I suspect I'm going to help him with German and he me with Norwegian