End of Year Reflections and Progress ReportIt's certainly been quite a year, and as 2016 is almost at its end, it's time to look back on my progress over the last 12 months and see where I am at with my French learning project.
I started the year as a blank slate; a complete beginner who could not even formulate a basic sentence. On January 1st 2016, I posted some goals I wanted to achieve this year:
Rebecca wrote:My goals for the year are:
Approximately B1 Level
5,000 word passive vocabulary
Ability to hold a simple conversation
Did I achieve my goals this year?Well, all I can rightfully say is
Oh, and a little
And not forgetting quite a bit of
Honestly, if this forum had a 'rolling around on the floor in slightly hysterical laughter regarding my New Year optimism' emoji, I would add a bit of that too.
Oh, poor, poor naive me.
In short - no, I in no way achieved my goals.
To be fair to myself, this has been an utterly
terrible year for me and one which I consider a complete write off. If I could I would press rewind and jump straight to 2017. There have been numerous issues to deal with: my ongoing chronic illness which has not been playing nicely at all and has been extremely unpredictable this year; a new inflammatory eye problem (related to my main health problem) which has felt like my eyes have been burning two holes through my head for the better part of six months; the constant back and forth between hospitals, doctors and specialists; and to top it all off, the death of a loved one.
The available time and energy for learning French in the spaces between dealing with these issues has been much less than I would have liked.
But did I make some progress this year? Do I know more French now than I did back in January?
Undoubtedly, yes.
I started as complete beginner and now I would estimate my French skills as roughly A1. My reading level is perhaps slightly higher than that, but my speaking would be a shaky A1, I imagine.
Much more importantly, I feel I have learned some valuable things about
how I like to learn, what kind of resources I enjoy and what I find most effective. I probably wasted some time this year figuring all these things out. But that is a necessary part of the language learning game, I guess.
I have also noticed that I have a tendency to put too much pressure on myself to attain certain goals in a short space of time. I have always had this perfectionist element to my personality and it can sometimes be a hindrance. You would think that after almost 20 years of having a chronic illness I would have learned how to pace myself and to know my limitations, but no. I find I still frequently over-estimate what I can do with the mental and physical energy available to me. I don't know if this is a good thing or a bad thing: either it shows my optimism remains undimmed or I have a monumental lack of self-awareness.
I have realised I also need to stop comparing myself to other language learners, particularly those who may have better health than me or much more energy. The amazing success stories we can read on this forum and others of language learners reaching dizzying heights of attainment in impossibly short time frames can be a double-edged sword: they can be hugely inspiring but also can induce feelings of stress and disappointment when, ineveitably, we cannot emulate them.
Goals for 2017My goal for the coming year is - ironically - not to make any new goals.
I just want to
Do. Some. French.I want to take things at my own pace and see where I end up at the end of the year. I aim to try to be the tortoise and not the hare this year. Hopefully I will know more French in December 2017 than I do now and that is really all I can plan for.
I will carry on logging films and books for the Super Challenge and carry on where I left off with Assimil and other resources.
Thank you to everyone who has read or commented in my log this year - I truly appreciate it when people pop in to give me words of advice and encouragement!
Bring on 2017. I am
so ready for a fresh start.