Welcome back to another edition of "What's Going On?" with eido.
I'm here to report that this past month and a half has been a transition period in my life, and the next few months are likely to continue that trend.
What has this meant for my language learning?
Well, I haven't studied much, though like I wrote in a previous post here on the log, languages have been on the mind the entire time, sometimes requisitely.
Much of this time has been spent re-organizing resources and getting ready to perform the act of studying without actually doing it.
I try not to write posts here unless I have some news bit I want to convey. I suppose people take what they do out of posts I make, so please continue to do so. I'm not one to police that, as it'd be futile.But
... I would like to report possible changes in language roster, reflect on giving up, and blab about music.1.
I was thinking the other day that maybe my dad was right all those times he recommended German and French to me. When I was thinking about this, there was no real reason that jumped out at me for switching to more "conventional" languages. A roster of Spanish, German, French, Korean, and Polish seems simple enough to keep up with if a little heavy.
Since I've focused on Spanish for almost 10 years now and have gotten to a decent enough level (B2 on the cusp of C1, or a very low C1 -- while being relatively young), I can start adding other languages into the mix and actively practicing them. "Actively" is the key, since I apparently stopped doing that due to a dip in confidence after I embarked on my Korean journey. I don't think Korean intimidated me. I just think I got into a prolonged depressive funk.
Therefore, I think that yes, studying all those languages I bought books and courses for would serve an excellent use of my time, but perhaps 10 to 15 years down the road when I've gotten to a comfortable C1 in all the languages listed. I have mentioned many times before here on LLORG that I would like bilingual children, and I would like them to be bilingual in their heritage language. I'm not fluent (i.e. a high level, say C2) in it yet. So hopefully this upcoming spring/summer I'll start taking intensive lessons so I can master it before I start making plans for the arrival of any children.2.
This past month, due to university courses, I've felt a lot like throwing in the towel and saying, "I'm done with this." The courses are challenging and the professor a hard grader. I'm used to colloquial Spanish and I do well there, conversing easily if a little run by nerves. But most of this is adrenaline since I'm so excited to speak Spanish and love it dearly. I however do think I'll have to re-think a lot of things.
I've had no time to study outside languages since I'm so worried about doing right in Spanish. I could study Korean, but I get demotivated easily. I might have to drop Korean altogether, forever. Or just for a very long time. It would be satisfying to sell all those books and get rid of them. The books are pretty, though.
I suppose what my dad's been trying to say to me is it's a matter of quality, not quantity, even if I get curious. I thought so, too. But I never realized how much a concept like this mattered, or what it meant.
Which leads us to the next point...3.
I previously mentioned cutting k-pop out of my life. I don't have beef against the groups. And, you might wonder, why do I have to say that? Because k-pop stans defend their boys and girls as if every interaction with another person were a life-and-death battle. Their groups have to be at the top, or else. It sort of drives me nuts.
I don't want to be that person who says, "I'm just in it for the music" because a lot of k-pop sounds the same. So manufactured. Not very original. I'm not looking for experimental up the you-know-what, but 80% of groups don't match what I'm looking for. There's 15% that're pretty decent, but only in certain lights. And then there's 5% that truly shine, like BTS and SHINee (no pun intended... actually maybe yes). But even they get boring, and their fanbases are eternally "toxic," as the teenagers say. Immature.
So if I continue studying Korean, I'll have to dig deep in the archives.
I'll never stop being a fan of these two groups, though. They've made me smile so many times.
Throughout my journey through their discographies, my dad and I managed to agree on two songs, one from each, that were truly performed well.
1. Blood, Sweat, and Tears - BTS
(not about giving your effort, but giving your soul)
2. Downtown Baby - SHINee
(my dad thought it was in the vein of Michael Jackson, and SHINee are Michael Jackson fanboys)
And just some additional parting gifts for anyone looking to get into the two groups from a Pentatonix-like group from Korea:
1. Evolution of BTS
2. Evolution of SHINee
I don't know how often I'll post here starting from now. But I hope to always keep studying.