Back to the roots and water them with coffee
Posted: Sat Oct 03, 2020 9:34 pm
Having coffee in my logs' names is a sort of a tradition for me.
Why am I starting a new log: a lot of things have gone wrong with my language learning and my beginning career in the last few months. I don't want to dwell on the failures, on the painful compromises (extremely briefly: I am staying in France for now, but taking a medical specialty that has absolutely nothing to do with my real goals and interests, and I won't even live in a big enough city in the next few years, probably just in dumb small towns) and broken dreams. And I don't want to push myself even harder into learning any language for profit, it simply doesn't work. My brain resists and begins to hate German again because of this. The pressure "learn German to get a better career" approach was disgusting to my brain 20 years ago, and it is again. As a kid, I heard it from everybody around me. Now, I am doing this myself.
So, progressing in my languages, having fun, and eventually getting some new and shiny certificates (because that is a wonderful goal, an opportunity to leave the comfort zone, and give myself an ego boost that I could really do with), that is my goal. Leaving aside Spanish and Italian for German, that was a huge mistake. Those two are making me happier and I really need to unrust them. German will take the ride with them, if it works.
And should time allow, I am really falling in love with Hebrew. I heard Gal Gadot speak it on youtube and fell in love, I've heard about the nice popular culture in it, I know the israeli are among the best in some fields I am interested in. I am a bit tempted with Arabic, it would be great for my patients, and I am a huge fan of Maiwenn's log (and Hebrew suffers from such a lack of resources, compared to the enormous world of Arabic). But somehow, Hebrew speaks more to my heart for now.
The next two posts will be my progress bar garden, and (more importantly) the super challenge log.
Why am I starting a new log: a lot of things have gone wrong with my language learning and my beginning career in the last few months. I don't want to dwell on the failures, on the painful compromises (extremely briefly: I am staying in France for now, but taking a medical specialty that has absolutely nothing to do with my real goals and interests, and I won't even live in a big enough city in the next few years, probably just in dumb small towns) and broken dreams. And I don't want to push myself even harder into learning any language for profit, it simply doesn't work. My brain resists and begins to hate German again because of this. The pressure "learn German to get a better career" approach was disgusting to my brain 20 years ago, and it is again. As a kid, I heard it from everybody around me. Now, I am doing this myself.
So, progressing in my languages, having fun, and eventually getting some new and shiny certificates (because that is a wonderful goal, an opportunity to leave the comfort zone, and give myself an ego boost that I could really do with), that is my goal. Leaving aside Spanish and Italian for German, that was a huge mistake. Those two are making me happier and I really need to unrust them. German will take the ride with them, if it works.
And should time allow, I am really falling in love with Hebrew. I heard Gal Gadot speak it on youtube and fell in love, I've heard about the nice popular culture in it, I know the israeli are among the best in some fields I am interested in. I am a bit tempted with Arabic, it would be great for my patients, and I am a huge fan of Maiwenn's log (and Hebrew suffers from such a lack of resources, compared to the enormous world of Arabic). But somehow, Hebrew speaks more to my heart for now.
The next two posts will be my progress bar garden, and (more importantly) the super challenge log.